You’ve got to love yourself


And kid, you’ve got to love yourself. You’ve got wake up at four in the morning, brew black coffee, and stare at the birds drowning in the darkness of the dawn. You’ve got to sit next to the man at the train station who’s reading your favorite book and start a conversation. You’ve got to come home after a bad day and burn your skin from a shower. Then you’ve got to wash all your sheets until they smell of lemon detergent you bought for four dollars at the local grocery store. You’ve got to stop taking everything so goddam personally. You are not the moon kissing the black sky. You’ve got to compliment someones crooked brows at an art fair and tell them that their eyes remind you of green swimming pools in mid July. You’ve got to stop letting yourself get upset about things that won’t matter in two years. Sleep in on Saturday mornings and wake yourself up early on Sunday. You’ve got to stop worrying about what you’re going to tell her when she finds out. You’ve got to stop over thinking why he stopped caring about you over six months ago. You’ve got to stop asking everyone for their opinions. Fuck it. Love yourself, kiddo. You’ve got to love yourself.
— Unknown

New Year Resolutions (2018)

  • Drink more water
  • Read more books
  • Do workout regularly
  • More forgiveness and more forgetfulness
  • More love
  • Watch more seasons
  • Become more social
  • Improve technical skills
  • Saving for Umrah
  • Be more happy and wild
  • Be more mindful in daily tasks
  • Start taking medicine properly
  • Be more productive
  • Pray more
  • Positive vibes only
  • Try something new (Yoga, DIY projects, baking, meditation or dance)


Good Bye 2017

Here comes the last day of 2017. In the start of every new year, I see people in different meme, requesting new year to be nice to them. I think it’s not the year but you who have to be nice to yourself. I haven’t set my new year resolution yet but the things I started in this year, I have plan to continue doing them. Let’s see, how my 2017 went.

2017 started with the 3-days adventurous trip to Shogran and Siri Paye in January. I hadn’t see live snow falling till that day and I witnessed it. I still remember, how existed I was about snow falling and my parents kept calling me again and again just to ask me was I satisfied enough with my wish being fulfilled. I was shouting with excitement on phone call and kept saying yes yes it’s happening for real.

The second best thing happened to me in this year was Tour De Hunza (Trip to Hunza and Khunjerab Pass). I haven’t written about my that trip but it is in queue. Camping, View of Rakaposhi peak, Visit to Hunza City, Hunza’s famous Walnut cake, Visit to Pak-china boarder, watching Hunza from Eagles Nest Peak, travelling over kharakoram highway- the 8th wonder of the world, Visiting Passu and Gilgit, and the breathtaking sceneries on the way to Khunjerab Pass is beyond words. I will definitely write about the most thrilling trip of my life.

In start of 2017, I started reading ‘Tafseer of Holy Quran’ but unfortunately I left that practice and hardly completed 3 paras. I am promising myself to start it again in upcoming year and will try to complete it in 2018 InshaAllah.

In this leaving year, I switched my company and I think it was a good decision. It helped me to progress both monetarily and technically, and Alhumdulilah I am very happy with my job. Looking forward to more challenges, and more and more learning.

And yes, my sister got married in this year. The wedding went well Alhumdulilah and we really enjoyed dancing, teasing her, shopping, running to parlour and all the preparations from months to that big day. I wish her very happy and blessed life ahead. I miss her a lot.

This year fulfilled my another wish of pursuing higher education. I got admission in MS(CS) and Alhumdulilah, first semester is about to complete. I also completed my goodreads challenge of “Reading 10 books in 2017”.

So, 2017 was overall a very good and interesting year of my life. I have learned a lot about beauty of Pakistan, people, relationship, friendship, books, time management, balance between work, studies and life and much more in this year. I will be better next year. I will be better in dealing with liars, fake people, flirts and mean people. I will be better in managing my work life and studies and giving time to family and to myself. Hoping to be a better version of myself next year.

I wish you all a happy new year with new dreams, new hopes, new perspectives, new goals and new aspirations. Thanks to everyone who made me smile this year.

keep smiling, loving and reading. 🙂

Rules of Love

Few my favorite rules of Love from “Forty Rules of Love” by Elif Shafak


  • You can study God through everything and everyone in the universe, because God is not confined in a mosque, synagogue or church. But if you are still in need of knowing where exactly His abode is, there is only one place to look for him: in the heart of a true lover.
  • It’s easy to love a perfect God, unblemished and infallible that He is. What is far more difficult is to love fellow human being with all their imperfections and defects. Remember, one can only know what one is capable of loving. There is no wisdom without love. Unless we learn to love God’s creation, we can neither truly love nor truly know God.
  • We were all created in His image, and yet we were each created different and unique. No two people are alike. No hearts beat to the same rhythm. If God had wanted everyone to be the same, He would have made it so. Therefore, disrespecting differences and imposing your thoughts on others is an amount to disrespecting God’s holy scheme.
  • The universe is one being. Everything and everyone is interconnected through an invisible web of stories. Whether we are aware of it or not, we are all in a silent conversation. Do no harm. Practice compassion. And do not gossip behind anyone’s back – not even a seemingly innocent remark! The words that come out of our mouths do not vanish but are perpetually stored in infinite space and they will come back to us in due time. One man’s pain will hurt us all. One man’s joy will make everyone smile.
  • The universe is one being. Everything and everyone is interconnected through an invisible web of stories. Whether we are aware of it or not, we are all in a silent conversation. Do no harm. Practice compassion. And do not gossip behind anyone’s back – not even a seemingly innocent remark! The words that come out of our mouths do not vanish but are perpetually stored in infinite space and they will come back to us in due time. One man’s pain will hurt us all. One man’s joy will make everyone smile.
  • Nothing should stand between you and God. No imams, priests, rabbits or any other custodians of moral or religious leadership. Not spiritual masters and not even your faith. Believe in your values and your rules, but never lord them over others. If you keep breaking other people’s hearts, whatever religious duty you perform is no good. Stay away from all sorts of idolatry, for they will blur your vision. Let God and only God be your guide. Learn the Truth, my friend, but be careful not to make a fetish out of your truths.
  • It is never too late to ask yourself, “Am I ready to change the life I am living? Am I ready to change within?” Even if a single day in your life is the same as the day before, it surely is a pity. At every moment and with each new breath, one should be renewed and renewed again. There is only one-way to be born into a new life: to die before death.
  • A life without love is of no account. Don’t ask yourself what kind of love you should seek, spiritual or material, divine or mundane, Eastern or Western. Divisions only lead to more divisions. Love has no labels, no definitions. It is what it is, pure and simple. Love is the water of life. And a lover is a soul of fire! The universe turns differently when fire loves water.

Few Facts about Me

  • I love cats more than people.
  • I hate long fingernails.
  • I love to sing but I am way out of tune.
  • I am an introvert.
  • I do not wear makeup.
  • I am OCD about cleaning, I clean other things while I am cleaning.
  • I love my job.
  • I love photographing nature.
  • My favorite color is blue…Mmm…green…white…black…all the colors in the world.
  • I love to read and learn.
  • I do not like to follow trends.
  • My first crush was Shane Bond.
  • My favorite books is “The Alchemist”.
  • Give me chocolates and I’ll do just about anything.
  • I am a list-maker. I have lists everywhere and for everything.
  • My mom is one of my best friends.
  • My favorite sport is cricket.
  • I have 3 ear piercings.
  • My favorite music band is Coldplay.
  • My favorite season is Prison Break.
  • I am a procrastinator.
  • I sleep too much.
  • I am pashtoon but I cannot speak pashto.
  • I get excited over silliest things.
  • I hate online shopping.
  • I am Aries on the cusp with Taurus.
  • My favorite quotes is: “Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dream.”
  • First thing that I notice in a stranger is: Smile.
  • I have million different types of mood swings everyday.
  • My favorite fruit is Apple.
  • I wanted to be a nuclear scientist but ended up as a computer engineer.
  • I fall in love with souls, not bodies.
  • I prefer green tea over chai and coffee over everything.
  • Molten Lava cake…O My love!!! anytime.



I am, I was, and I will be my own worst enemy. No one had courage to destroy me without my permission. Living your life with your worst enemy, facing her everyday, hiding her from people, stopping her from doing more worse… yea! Life is a constant struggle. One thing that I’ve learned so far is no matter what has happened and what is happening, do not let people ruin it and make it more worse for you. You can hate yourself or you can hate them but you cannot do both at the same time. At least, one end should contain element of love. Hate yourself and let the people love you or love yourself and do not care about people.

I’m an introvert

I usually like listening to a conversation instead of  being center of one. I like being around people, not having to interact with them. I like being quiet. I like to always be in deep thoughts. I’m not sad, I’m not lonely, I’m not anti-social. I’m an introvert.
I wouldn’t want to be anything else.